Something happened today which made me very sad and upset. I wont talk about what it was because that isn’t really that important right now and I don’t want to burden others with it (especially when I feel it’s very easy to take the other persons side).
Needless to say I felt like curling up under my cover, eat ice cream, watch horror (for some reason I often feel like watching horror when I’m sad) and maybe cry a bit (more). But I talked to my mom and she said No.
“Take your camera with you and take a walk. Search for spring. Be amazed over what has happend since you looked for it the last time. Make a photo collage on a theme, maybe a colour or a shape or a size. I look forward to seeing it.”
I groaned a bit and said I didn’t feel like it. To leave the bed, get dressed and go OUTSIDE felt like to big of a task at that moment. But I did it anyway. I took my camera, my new telephoto lens and I went in search of birds. And it made me feel so much better. I would probably had felt better after some ice cream and murder too, but this way it went much faster and much less of the sadness was left (even though I’m still upset over what happened).
So thank you again, mom. (This is probably the fifth time and the third place I’ve thanked her). I really love you and I look forward to seeing you the day after tomorrow.